So yeah things turned out quite bad.. hmmmz... well i tink i haf to put it all in e past.. i haf yet closed another book in life.. not chap.. n tis book im goin burn coz it realli dirties my shelf n makes me feel so sad juz seein its spine...
yupzzzz.. my mom n sis came back today.. couldn't blog e past few days as my internet was down.. stupid rite.. then my dad cannot stand it... go send e modem for check up hahah then they say no prob.. then he desperate.. then go harvey norman buy cable.. guess wat.. he bought a tv too.. hahahah so cool rite...
yes.. im takin a gamble.. wat if i still like him.. n im lettin him go.. e thing is im not sure.. lettin him go broke my heart...n his too as well... but i rather not waste his time.. after givin it careful tinkin.. i tink im too selfish to hold on to him juz becoz im unsure.. so yeah.. he can find a beta girl i believe.. given his qualities.. well in life is all abt lettin go... i tink its abt time i learn to give instead of takin all e time.. tis is e best i can gif...
so... izit ok for a guy to lyk 2 girls as one.. well tis guy frm C class said yes.. well i guess it runs in e class... all got something wrong one.. nvm tis ppl wil get their retribuition.. get tis straight.. girls do not need guys to survive vice versa... wateva man.. likewise i can make it to e end myself.. tts wat i always fail to realise.. thanx jian xin...
Mistakes do not come frm God.. so stop blamin wateva u did wrong on God.. wat God plans n all.. We sin becoz we were swayed frm e path he has set up.. yes.. God wil forgive us.. but so wat if u repeat e same mistake again n again.. anyway i also dun wan to say liaoz...
abt leaders havin 2 masks.. jian xin also explained to me... so tis is wat it is.. an angel in front of teachers n a devil to others... well so be it... some ppl wud realise it later in life.. some nve... im not a fantastic leader.. so i shadn't say anymore.. but ask urself one question.. wat kind of leader r u?
8:03 AM.
" Wednesday, April 13, 2005
yupzz.. my dad took half day off yesterday to clear up e house before my mom come back.. hahahah... notty notty.. well.. my mom didn't complain when she came backk... e first thing i ask for is present.. hahaha.. yeahhh.. she bought me a adidas jersey... very nice lorzz.. got pink strips de =) hehehe.. so cute..
my sis bought a gown.. tailor made.. apparently it was cheap... then they make me go n try... i try liaoz.. luckily too loose hahaha.. if not they wud make me wear it for grad nite.. no thanx!!! hahaha... its blue n got flowers.. it some kind of vietnam dress la... hahaha
yawnnnz.. today whole day slackin.. kevin u study so hard.. get all e A's la.. hahaha.. im left with e remnants of b's... hhmmmmzz...
i tink i cannot make it to TJC... but u noe wat God... its ur will... hahaha.. if make it in then make it in lorz.. my mom say dun get so stressed out.. hahaah... always tel me not to study so much...
" ehhh.. dun study liao la.. come n eat fruits... eh got ice cream... " tts my mom... interrupt my train of thoughts n in depth focus on something.. hahaha sheeeesshhh
nvmmm ice cream sounds great tooo... yummy
yummmzz... bought banana milk..
i got A1 for reproduction quiz... im not showin off.. but me n heidi were e onli girls.. hahaha... Vedant got A1... hahahaha... he was serious when he said he wud get one..eeee sicko
can't stand pervertic guys... but joel told me most of e guys in tk all lyk tt lyk tt one... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee n i heard jc guys r worse.... ooo man...
okiez.. tmr goin to uraina's house to watch vcd.. hehehe... yipppeeee
anyway.. hmmmz.. i tink im slackin too much.. muz lyk keviin lyk tt get back on track.. hahaha
FOCUS... kick all distractions all aside.. hehehe
bubbbyez
5:31 AM.
" Friday, April 01, 2005
yes.. im realli realli torned.. becoz im separating myself frm my other half.. i duno how im goin to cope.. but i tink somehow things wud fall in place. if we r realli meant to b.. we will meet someday
the long goodbye... tt was wat i meant all e while
sighzz... im realli sorry kevin.. i can't go on doion tis.. i feel lyk a B****
yes... im broken hearted too... yeahhh
maybe tis is wat love is all abt... u love..
another chapter in my life has come to a close........
n if he shud eva end up with my best friend.. i wish them all e best.. they haf my blessings.. =)
but uraina say she wud nve do such a thing to me.. hahahaha... she say kevin not her type of guy.. does not fit her description.. fair enough....
gtg lerzzz bubbyezz
"The wise men in the storm prays to God, not for safety from danger, but for deliverance from fear." Ralph Waldo Emerson