We all need somebody to leannnn on.. hahaha yeahh.. ok i got 2 min to type tis crapp.. need to hand e com over to my sis! hahahah.. now everyone fightin for e new com.. too bad la lao pokpok e com.. mei ren yao ni.. hahahah. even me!
wat a day.. oo man.. im so tired.. hahaha my eyes were red today.. nopezz.. nobody made me cry.. i tink my eye got irritation.. shucks.. tmr gotta wear my specs to sch.. time to nerd nerd.. hahaha.. wateva.. dun worry kevin.. u look nerdy. so do i.. cheer up abt ur specs.. afterall they cost u $210?? hahaha.. take gd care of ur specs... not lyk my sis de.. hahaha e frame alone $275 then she flattened e whole thing when she left it on e bed.. sighzz.. hahahaa
okkk.. so today was juz lyk any other sundays.. hahaha. sadly. nothin interestin. go to church... late lorzz.. hahahaa. my dad was realli mad.. heheeh.. he one person in e car waitin for 4 other ppl to come down.. haha. ooo wellzz.. then after church went to tuition.. listen to mr sim rattle on abt physics.. man m i glad he is my tutor.. i tink without him.. confirm fail physics.... quite interestin leh e magnetism.. esp e d.c motor.. hahahaha... wat draw concentric circles n then use fleming left hand rule.. then find e force.. hehehe.. so fun lorzz.. everyone was pntin their fingers up n down.. hehehe
yesteday.. went to orchard with... Zenas, Chalit, Bryan, Ming Hong n Uraina.. oo ya dong hao also went.. hahaha. anyway.. first time i go out wif so many guys// OMG hahahah. who cares anyway.. quite fun la.. Dong hao so early go home.. he was wearin sandals.. hahahah.. now tt was funny.. me n uraina were sniggerin at him.. hahaha. he look lyk he goin to e beach! anyway.. he watch e movie then zhao liaozz.. e rest of e day we went walk walk ard orchard.. i tink we went first to heeren.. there nothing much la.. hahaha. except for flash n splash.. hmmz... i was suppose to buy uraina's V-day present.. hahaha she wanted a roxy pencil case.. but she say not nice.. fine.. then go mambo buy huimin's present.. well it wasn't realli expensive.. heehheeh.. ooo well.. then uraina was complainin tt huimin nve gif her b'dae present.. hahaha. well she gave me a pair of earrings.. which i had already.. well its e thought tt counts i guess.. anyway i tink my earhole close liaozz..
So look wat has happened to me... wan to haf a glance of a loser? rite here... im juz wearin a mask lyk every other daY... when i see both of them.. i juz feel lyk puking.. sighzz... jealousy is toyin with me.. i feel so horrible everyday...
well well... ya.. everyone nerdin man.. hahaha.. as much as i hate to admit.. e O's r comin quick n fast... im scared.. but i guess its juz another steppin stone in life.. hiazz.. my mom said.. juz walk in n do ur best... if u dun do well.. tts ok... yeahh.. at least im not so stressed up abt doin well...
yeahhh... hmmmzz.... well.. i guess i dun haf to b e best student to b happy... everyone can b happy.. its onli whether they wan to or not.. ok la realli gtg lerzz.. mysis is screamin her head off...
hiazz.. i realli love tis com.. =)
ya... P/S: Kevin tts a 4a joke.. hahahah.. i noe its not a dirty joke laa... diaoozzz
5:48 AM.
" Monday, March 28, 2005
well my specs r out of shape too.. but i dun tink i need a new one.. juz changed mine last year.. hahaha... see la.. too bad i can't take pink.. coz i look cheesy in pink.. sighzzz.. hehehe well no more contacts for me i guess.. i rather look uglier then haf blood shot eyes.. rite?? hahaha.. nvm.. ugly pppl wil always b ugly i guess. ehehe.. sighzz. i m so bored.. well gotta study.. eveyone is studyin.. i tink not realli study ba.. juz take things more seriously.. i tink a few more months then its over. i wan to leave tk with no regret.. hahaha.. no matter how bad my grades r at e end of e day, i juz wan to b able to shout out tt i did my best! haha
so chalit got full marks for his heat quiz.. uh huh!! yeahhh.. 4.86 is correct! yipppezz.. but i dun tink i get full marks.. sighhhzzz.. hahaha becoz of my behind ans anyhow do.. nvm la.. ya.. come to tink of it... my last time acheivements means nothin now.. its not e past but e present which matter.. hahaha.. oo well.. wats not meant to b urs wil nve b urs.. so if im not fated to get gd results for some reason or another.. then so b it i guess.. God muz haf some other beta plans for me then studyin i gues.. hahaha RIGHT GOD??? yeahhh...
well ppl gtg lerzzz... hahaha
if i didn't noe u............................................
bubbbyezzz
2:04 AM.
" Sunday, March 27, 2005
my mom registered my bro for chinese enrichments HAN tuition.. hahahaha.. retarted man.. gd luck lil bro.. no one at home on sat 1pm.. hehehe.. can ask my friends come my house!!! yay! no lil monster to irritate me!! anyway.. frm today.. muz start studyin hard.. ESP chinese lorz.. hiazz.. eventhough i noe cannot get A1 or A2 i tink i still haf to give it my best shot.. afterall im targetin 5 A's.. hiazz.. *keep fingers crossed* n pray realli hard.. hehe i tel everybody.. i dun wan B3 or A2... i wan B4 or A1.. hehehe.. becoz i get B3 n A2 i cry let u see.. no la tt was BULLSHIT
hmmmz... i tink my hp bill reali gona bao za.. hahahah.. i prepare all e cash liaoz.z. my dad wan to pay.. hahaha or he goin to cut my line.. ahhhhhh! hahahaha.. he say he willin to pay $200++ to cancel my contract.. omg.. no tt can't happen.. hahaha.. so im lyk realli controllin lyk crazy.. im sorry ppl if i didn't reply ur messages.. come on.. u noe how much u ppl mean to me rite rite rite???? juz lyk i noe how i mean to u..... hahahah okie okiez.. shhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Kevin got new specs.. hahaha dun worry i wun pnt n laugh.. noooooo i muz get my revenge.. i wil laugh.. n pnt n say HAHA.. becoz u laughed at my haircut.. an eye for an eye.. two can play e game.. hehehe.. juz kiddin la.. there r beta things to laugh at then ur specs.. relax.. hahaha.. anywayz.. if u ppl need to tok to me realli urgent (which i highly doubt..) juz ring me up my home phone la.. dun worry la.. e onli time when my mom questions a guy is when bryan called.. becoz he sounded like cross between a male n a female.. tis made my mother highly suspicious.. hahaha.. tts y she asked for his name.. call for wat.. so on n so forth..
okiezz... now when i look at chopsticks n bowls.. i also scared.. i see basketball also run away.. then when i see mirror also scared.. geezzz.. hahaha.. i shud not haf watched shutters n e 10 ways to see ghosts.. so scary lorzz... last time i watch e ring.. u noe e american version.. first part not scary de.. then e last part.. e women came out of e tv.. wah liaozz.. me n my bro fainted on e spot.. hahaha.. nooo nooo im not goin to watch e ring e next part... hahaha
i wonder how halim is in indo.. haha sighzz.... hiazzzzzz... cannot play liaoz.. everybody study muz follow suit.. hehehe im very copycat.. ppl do wat i follow.. except if they eat shit or jump down.. talia wil pnt n laugh.. hehehee ooo ya.. i still remember.. ss lessons we doin e essay on e birth rates.. then mrs choi ask.. "talia how many children do u wan" then i errrr errrr.. hmmmz... uh.. then i juz show a zero.. then mrs choi was lyk.. tts a gd example.. of.. u noe u noe.. hahaha.. hey it makes sense wat.. study so hard then later get a job get married.. then give birth.. then become a housewife.. omg! 20 years of studyin in e drain.. sighzz.. hahahaha.. ok wateva.. tts in e future.. hopefully my perception wud change.. jen says she wans 2 kids.. one boy one girl.. hahahaha
oo well.. i tink i shud stop.. type so much for wat? hardly anybody read.. nearly wanted to type nobody.. but i realised im somebody.. hehehe.. n i read my own blog (tryin to console myself =P)
hai you duo jiu
wo cai neng zai ni shen bian
-jay chou song.. heheh forgotten e title
evergreen to heart........................... God bless
bubbyez!
2:26 AM.
" Saturday, March 26, 2005
anywayzzz... then after tt.. walk here walk there.. nothin much to do yeah.. hahaha.. most of e time we were tokin... then we went back to lido.. then chalit n bryan said they had to go.. n they juz disappeared.. hahaha.. then we went to kfc.. e 2 guys.. still refuse to take our cash.. wah liaozz.. hahahaha.. they probably wanted us to feel bad.. n we did!!!! hahaha.. ok.. then they were challengin each other to e salad.. which look realli tasty but tasted lyk chicken rice.. weird rite.. hahahaha..
then later go home liaoz lorzz.. overall i tink quite fun... got to noe zenas n ming hong beta.. hahaha.. hey ming hong did not even mutter a single vulgarity!!! im so proud of him.. but i tink i kinda neglected chalit n bryan.. hahah but they had each other.. dun worry.. one is straight e other is not...
so yeah... then later me n uraina went to parkway.. to continue shoppin. where we bought a couple of stuff.. hehehehe... sMileZZZzzz.. shall not elaborate..
truely madly deeply
is caesar cute? well wateva.. i tink orlando is realli cute.. oooo ya.. we met dedrick at cineleisure.. he is so cute!! i used to like him... becoz he is cute la.. so shallow rite.. hahaha... but i tink he very skinny n white.. hahahahhaaa.. ok wateva...
someday someday........................................
its now or never..
3:22 AM.
" Sunday, March 13, 2005
i lose to her in every aspect of my life...
maybe i shud juz hand him over... he is juz wastin his time.. since he liked her before.. y can't he fall for her again.. go on.. im waitin...
she everything also beta then me.. all humans r selfish creatures., they wan e best.. so she's e best.. y doesn't he take her.. n keep me... durin those days.. wearin a fake smile.. for me.. n truely smiling n blushin at her behind my back.. who noes wat they haf done behind my back?? tt time even go her house all alone lehz.. in her bedroom all alone.. so romantic rite? ok fine.. classmates onli wat... nothin i can do... im e biggest fool on tis earth.. y didn't i see thru e biggest scheme tt happened rite in front of me...
-everytime he look in my direction, he was lookin at her-
-everytime he talked to me... was juz to tell me hey "im stil in love with u"
bull shit... i dun believe wateva he says anymore...
if tis is wat love is all abt.. i rather not love...
tis is e burden im carryin... e burden of love...
i shud not bear grudges.. i shud forgive n forget... my future is ahead not behind.. but does he even noe how it feels.. all he has to do is say sorry... i feel sad, cheated, hurt, jealous and of course inferior...
God please help me to forgive n forget.. n come to a decision wat to do.. im at my wits end... n my best friend can act as if nothin is wrong.. tts becoz she is so fabulous tt she can even attract my guy.. applause.... im juz such a loser... is tt goin to happen to every guy i lyk... then go ahead... i wil move aside...
all ur promises of everything is pure bull shit...
i wan to forget u.. erase u frm my shallowest memories...
"The wise men in the storm prays to God, not for safety from danger, but for deliverance from fear." Ralph Waldo Emerson