So look wat has happened to me... wan to haf a glance of a loser? rite here... im juz wearin a mask lyk every other daY... when i see both of them.. i juz feel lyk puking.. sighzz... jealousy is toyin with me.. i feel so horrible everyday...
i lose to her in every aspect of my life...
maybe i shud juz hand him over... he is juz wastin his time.. since he liked her before.. y can't he fall for her again.. go on.. im waitin...
she everything also beta then me.. all humans r selfish creatures., they wan e best.. so she's e best.. y doesn't he take her.. n keep me... durin those days.. wearin a fake smile.. for me.. n truely smiling n blushin at her behind my back.. who noes wat they haf done behind my back?? tt time even go her house all alone lehz.. in her bedroom all alone.. so romantic rite? ok fine.. classmates onli wat... nothin i can do... im e biggest fool on tis earth.. y didn't i see thru e biggest scheme tt happened rite in front of me...
-everytime he look in my direction, he was lookin at her-
-everytime he talked to me... was juz to tell me hey "im stil in love with u"
bull shit... i dun believe wateva he says anymore...
if tis is wat love is all abt.. i rather not love...
tis is e burden im carryin... e burden of love...
i shud not bear grudges.. i shud forgive n forget... my future is ahead not behind.. but does he even noe how it feels.. all he has to do is say sorry... i feel sad, cheated, hurt, jealous and of course inferior...
God please help me to forgive n forget.. n come to a decision wat to do.. im at my wits end... n my best friend can act as if nothin is wrong.. tts becoz she is so fabulous tt she can even attract my guy.. applause.... im juz such a loser... is tt goin to happen to every guy i lyk... then go ahead... i wil move aside...
all ur promises of everything is pure bull shit...
i wan to forget u.. erase u frm my shallowest memories...
"The wise men in the storm prays to God, not for safety from danger, but for deliverance from fear." Ralph Waldo Emerson